moody...T.T

i dont know what happen to me....

if can, i also wanna ask myself what happened to me now...

is it something or some events happened bothered me now...

"TELL ME WHY?"( a song too ya )..

.i also dont understand me myself....

i am moody suddenly ,

i dont have any mood now to complete my homework or do other things....

maybe i also dont understand ..

+ i am headache now....painful suddenly...

i am try listening to music now to conform my mood now...

to calm down my emo mood now...

and i hope it works on me ....

Tell me why,(why) does it have to be like this
Tell me why, (why) is there something I have missed
Tell me why, (why) cause I don't understand
When so many need somebody
We don't give a helping hand
Tell me why

Every day, I ask myself
what will I have to do to be a man
Do I have, to stand and fight
To prove to everybody who I am
Is that what my life is for?
To waste in a world full of war

the lyrics above is the lyrics of "TELL ME WHY"

this is one of my favorite song...

quite a nice song it was ya...

now , maybe i know why my mood become moody just now.

i think one of my reason is stress ba...

i put too much stress on myself ...

why i say so, sure i got reason to say so...

as everyone know, stpm results released a few days ago...

my sister is one who sat for stpm last year..

undoubt that she just recieve her results

but she dint scolded a good results and blammed by my mum..

of course i am also the one who blammed by my mum too...

beacuse my mum kept on advice me to study hard..

but she only always saw me sat in front of computer and television..

she blammed me that i dint study hard and

kept on tell me that i will scold the bad results like my sister if i dint study hard and cant enter unversity..

i am quite down when i heard it..

because i promised to my dad before

i say i wanna have a try in form 6 and maybe i cant handle the studies well..

it is because my dad forced me before to study account to be accountant in my future

but i not willing to be a accountant because i am not intersted in account subject..

it was happened in last year..

now, i recall back the scenes on that moment...

what am i tell him...

what am i promised to him...

but now i scare i will make them dissapointed..

am i make the wrong decision...?

should i follow what my dad tell on that time?

or maybe i am right to stay in form 6?

Dunno...really DUNNO now...

what am i do now?

i really need the supports from my friends..

maybe you can tell me what should i do now...

save me from a deep hole that i fall ..

haha.. what am i writting now ya..

already wrote it for so long without notice hw long it was ..

hey , cheer up...

everythings will be alright soon ya...

( i only can comfort myself like this.. )