久违的心情= 郁闷~cheers!!

何时何日开始，想起那快乐，愉快的心情慢慢消失了。现在想起，只有一股股的悲哀，泪水静悄悄的滑落脸盘。苦在心中，无人诉说。只能告诉自己坚强些，自己也是可以过的好好的~ 每个人都有自己的生活，不能勉强他人为我们生命里逗留许久。也许，每人都只是生命中的过客~自己得坚强些，不能因为一时过客带来的快乐，愉快而以为这是理所当然。不~这就是他们的任务~完成任务，他们依然继续向前行。那你自己呢？？此时的我只能干笑~哈哈！！

2nd year sem 1 in usm _=)

Wa. Time flied. 1 year passed. I been here usm for 1 year already . I am 2nd year student nw and be senior already .look back the album that I was in 1st year , just like it happen yesterday . Woohoo..but nth is going to change my uni life . It's just move on to next step . This year , it is more challenging for me since I am going to use laptop to design more to interior part and modelling..but it was stress too since I received 1st project b4 school reopen . It's ok . Stress push me to fly higher. Fighting , eQ. U can do it .even thought u start late but nevermind, Believe urself .let's aim higher , fight for the dream  ♡♡

(**ps: just notice it hvt post up after wrote it last 2 months  )

moody night =)

alright ~ teamwork  really hard for me ~ i am willing to cooperate but what i get in last is u decide it yourself without discussion. well.. if u want to make decision , can u discuss with us first and respect our opinion ?it is group work , not individual work  ,please make it clear , alright ?and now , all of us need to follow and coordinate u because u start your board already .in the beginning , u r the one told us to decide our design and decide what color of our boards used at last  . but . u are the first people to break the rule now , we need to coordinate u  now . then why u dun want to tell us early about your decision in the beginning ,make all of us get into trouble now .see, how good u are !! i am too disappointed on u T.T

R we still frenz ??

sometimes it is sad to heard somethg abt frenz relationship walk to the end or wat . I never think that we r  frm best frenz to  become stranger or some sort like that . I only know once u r my best frenz then we r best frenz forever except one case in form 6.  we know each other r busy, seldom meet each other but  it does not means we r over ,we can out together even I know we seldom out together coz we meet new frenz,sometimes I wan to ask u out but I dunno u still wan out with me or nt . it is one of the reason that I am nt dare to ask u out .maybe it cause the change btw our relationship . I am nt sure that am I the one who u mention , I only know a fact which is we still are best frenz at least it happen in my life . =)

Heart _ Hurt ? Bleeding ? Pain ?

U know my feelings now ??
I just wan to help u  but...
Do u know that it's hurt when I wan to help u but u keep on reject my help n not only reject one times ? It is called friend ??? Friends suppose to help each one in any moments when u need my each other's help. u reject my help means I am nt ur friend ? I dun hv that right to be ur friend ? U make me feel that I have been kicked out from ur friendlist .make me feel like I am alone . Yes . I feel alone sometimes . Whatever . Maybe i think too much . I only know one thing nw which is my heart is bleeding . It's pain . =(

My heart is suffering =(

I want to cry tonight. I dunno y . Now I just wan to cry as loudly as i can just like a baby is crying without cares anythg. But I know I cnt do it in this way ,just because I am adult nw .Can I free to be myself without cares anyone and their feelings anymore ? Just a few minutes or 1 minutes also cant huh ??? Now , I am tiring especially my heart .=)

我的感受就不是感受吗?

久违的一帖=)
为他人着想是好事，也许是你的体贴．
但过分的要求他人展示你的体贴，
这样只有反效果！！只会让他人感到不适．当要求别人为她着想时请不要过分．请想想他人的感受，好吗！!

是啊~那是我。

我不喜欢压抑自己,可是 我是环境所逼。
我不喜欢说过去的事,因为我会压抑不了自己,我会伤心。 =(

2 march 2013 , o1.22am

Merry christmas =)

Hey guys , wish u all MERRY CHRISTMAS . !!

Today is my First time  to celebrate christmas  . =)
With who ? Of coz my my frenz la . Dun tell me that u thought I out with bf . Alright . I admit I dun hv bf . Alone christmas .=)
Alright . Back to topic here . I out with sj and siang hao to gurney to celebrate Christmas from noon till night . We spent our time to  shopping alone to buy christmas gift for each other and then we watch "life of pi "in 3d (it is 1st time to watch 3d movie. Nice experience . Just tat spectacle is not tat comfort to wear ), after that we had our dinner at kopitan and also exchange the gift .  =) the gift I received are one cloth and one necklace . Thx sj and siang hao . It is nice and exciting today . I enjoy it very much today . Thx. ><  and I hope u guys like the gift I bought for u guys . Sorry if u guys dislike the gift I bought coz I really no idea what u guys like . Sorry . =(

Lastly , I want to wish everyone  "merry Christmas  happy forever "=)

无奈的我

最近，有了空闲的时间，想了很多,有点小emo。想找个人吐吐口水也找不到人．算了．自己想想，忍忍就算了，最后忘了吧．写这个时鼻头酸酸，泪水忍着写. 加油吧！

抱歉，我不喜欢

我果然不喜欢幼稚。无论是人和作风，我都不喜欢．别在幼稚了，成熟点吧!!!

依靠

有时候就像这个时刻的我就好想有个依靠。
每当发生一些事情时，我可以躲进他的怀里静静地哭一哭，安慰下我。
可是现在的我没有，只好自己安慰我自已。笑一个吧！smile!=)

疲累的心与身躯

今夜的我好累,心和身躯都好累。好想哭可是时机不对,要忍着。休息吧,我真的累了。=(

me in 16/11

 insomnia last night ?

yup.

i miss home very much =D

久久一日记

久违啦,大家。大家过的还好吗?
我从上一篇日记到现在已有2个月多没update blog了。抱歉。因为我这2个月的大学生活有点忙。费话不多说。我就大概说说我过去2个月的大学生活吧。

10月
- 进了usm,
- 度过了1个星期的 usm orientation(感想:我一直听到学长学姐说这个orientation是学长学姐欺负学弟学妹的日子,体验了后,我感到怪,为什么和听到不一样。我只感到无聊,玩一点games,过后都是一大堆的非常无聊的seminar ,当然大部分的人都在seminar中睡觉,我也一样。哈哈。因为累+无聊。哈哈。=p ),  
- 开始上课&吃美食 (认识新朋友,individual project一个接一个的来,超忙.不过再忙,我也会跑去吃penang的食物,尝一尝=p)
- school orientation (你们一定会奇怪为什么又有orientation 吧。上次是usm每个人的。现在的是给我学校的而已,一个是给所有人在我学校的参加,一个是给我学校华人而已。当然我两个都参加因为是 一定要参加的。不过就比usm orientation好玩多了。=)

11月 -到目前为止
-上课&做projects ( 不过是group projects ,没有我想象中那么好合作。因为一些因素。算了。我尽力做我的就好了。=□ )
- 一个星期的放假 (大多数的人都回家乡了,没回的大多数是 sarawak&sabah  因为机票贵=( 。只好在这里和 projects度过假期=[ 
说到Projects 它快要烦死我了,因为不知从哪里下手做。=((((  

    好了。今天就到这里了。在这里送上一张我的照片&祝大家假期快乐。

目前的我， 想说。

我
离开 s i b u 的日子只剩下不到一个月了 ~
开始有了不舍的心情  ~
其实我是个又 恋 家 但又 想 出 去 闯 闯 的 小 家 伙  ~   =p
这几天老是想要是我离开 s i b u 去 p e n a n g , 家里会不会变得更冷清了？

就此打住 ~
有人问 我要离开去哪？   我要去上大学了~ 嘻嘻 ~
有人问  我读什么 ？  我拿到的是 I N T E R I O R   D E S I G N  ,朋友们都恭喜我拿到自己要的科， 老实说这不是我真正想拿到的~我家人也反对。
你们一定想问为什么吧 ~     说来话长 ~简单的说就是理想变了吧~以前没接触很多， 上了form 6 , 想了很多。 接触了很多。只能说以前那股热忱变淡了吧 ~
你们一定想接着问    那你现在怎么办呢？   我家人都叫我换科，可我也不知我能不能成功， 加上我很没胆 ~    T  .  T   我知道我没用 ~  我会试试看 。 不过 听他们说每年成功转科的只有4 ， 5 人， 那多少人申请转科？ 40 ~50 人， 只有 十分之一的机会 。看来机会不大 阿。那能怎么办 ？ 不成功转科就只能读下去了 ~  没办法 ~ 

好了  ~  该回到主题了 ~ 
很快我要离开了。我好舍不得 。 你们会想我吗？我知道我妈一定会想我，我也会很想我妈 ~  妈咪  ~    T . T
我舍不得我家人， 朋友， 还有这里 s i b u 的一切（不包括 工作）
很快我就吃不到我妈咪煮的菜了 ，所以我要趁我还在 s i b u 时多吃点 ,不过我已经很肥了，连我老妈都叫我减肥  ~   > , <
很快我就要在外生活了，什么都要自己做， 洗衣，买东西，以后没人帮了~（以前老是我妈咪帮我做的   > , < ）
很快我就要辞去我目前这份工了~ Y E S ~ Y E A P I  ~ 其实我还要做到8月尾， 因为我问我妈要不要做到8月尾 就是28号（29 我要飞去k u c h i n g , 30  再飞 p e n a n g  , 1/9 报道日)，其实我多希望我妈说 :  " 别做了，在家陪我吧 . "  ~  因为我不太想做下去了 ~ 可是我妈的答案是做吧，赚多点你出去也能花，妈咪你真为我着想  ~   > , <   就这样我现在每天都希望8月快快过， 因为我真的不想做下去了，没意义~
算了 ~ 自我安慰下~来倒数我离辞职还有多久吧~ em  ~还有26天阿~好长~我不要啦    T  .  T   哇 ~ 哇 ~ 哇 ~  哭  ~


其实我已经好久没更新我的 b l o g 了，我进来只是想看看朋友的 b l o g ，看看朋友过的怎么样 并更新 b l o g  ~
看了朋友的 b l o g 我想对朋友 说 ：
也许我没资格说话，因为我不了解你的伤。为什么要这样折磨自己，你不心疼自己，我们看了都心疼，放下吧 ~ 不为他人，也为你自己 ~ 只有放手，你才会看到整个世界，并不是只有他的世界。而你也才能从中得到解脱.。开始你的新生活吧~
对不起，我不太会说话 ~  也不会安慰 ~  我只是不想看到你这样  ~ 好了 ~  就写到这里咯  ~  下次再续  ~

初恋那件小事

 《初恋那件小事》

Mario主演校園愛情喜劇《初戀這件小事》預告片

初戀那件小事MV - 回憶篇

 金典台词：

“你听到吗 我的心 正在说爱你

 但我却不敢 敞开心扉 表达我的这份爱

 你听到吗 我的心 依然在那里等待 等你翻阅”

“希望有一天 你会知道有人爱着你”

 看的过程中，我的泪水不受控制的流出来~我也吓了一跳，让我狂擦泪水.一句话“好看”=p
每个人都有一段刻骨铭心的初恋~
我的故事又会是如何的呢~我也不晓得~=D

梦醒了吗？

最近我老是独自一人发呆，

也许是常一个人在办公室吧。

一个人的地方老是会让人想多了~哈哈~

不过

有时，望着窗外发呆，

让我心中不时有了一些感触与期待。

 “随缘吧！有些东西，事情早已注定，

期待也无法改变什么，是时候梦醒了”

“是啊，不该再期待什么了”

哈哈~真讽刺啊~  =】

迷恋——心动

人之所以会心动，是因为有迷恋。

人在一生中会期待的就是心动，

哪怕只有一分钟，

不，

哪怕只有一秒钟，

那也足够。

"因是迷恋，果是心动。"

这就是因果啊~

=】

（ps:其实是我最近迷上了“仁显王后的男人”和“拥抱太阳的月亮”，

剧里常常提到因果，好看哦 =p ）

FRESH JoB before may 2012~

        Over years, i touched with many job  in different field such as promoter , S.A. , cashier ..All these jobs i dun have nothing special to share~but  ~ In different working environment , i learn a lot about society~It is not a simple society as we think .In this society , there is a lot of calumniate ,frame, jealous,closed with you with  a unkind heart and so on ..... Maybe you dun believe what i said , but it is real fact that happened on me before.It  turned me a lot such as independent, be brave.. Dun too believe what others said to you when you are working,because u never know what their aim for .There is nobody else can trust or believe when working .The only one can be trusted or believed is ourself~ it is one of what i learnt over years.Of course, what i said only for working .Not asking you dun believe anyone in this world such as ur closer friends , family , relatives and so on ~u can trust or believe them but DUN OVER RELY ON THEM..when u over rely on them , then sure something will going to happen to examine you.Good Luck then~

         ok ~How about my working life .  well.. in the beginning  of 2012, i decided to try some fresh job to get  experiences.i looked through job vacancy via newspaper and  sibu org websites  .First job that i found was executive assistant  in 剑桥语言中心（PBTJ）.well..Since i din experienced this kind of job before , so i went for the interview.After interview , they wanna me come to their office for one day training to see whether i can handle this job well or not .Of course , i went for it.First day , i was late to work due to traffic jam .I rushed to there and step on that office.Oh..there is another one girl also came for training .So i talk friendly with her because who knows,maybe we are colleague in the next few months .But we are not now. Haha.well.What are we going to do on training.We are given 15 minutes to know well their company .We read their award ,magazine and website .I thought we will have a test after 15 minutes .But it is not what i thought.We did not have test ,i was called to sat inside the counter to answer any call and open bills and another one girl was called to sort out some documents in document room .I was asked to said "PBTJ" when i answered any call .All the call was asking the same question :"i wanna check the schedule for this week or i wanna book this time for my tuition "they already got their own schedule ,why still need to take a call ..It is not much big deal .When it was my turn to sort out the documents , i found that got one people i know ,(same school with me and also same class with me in school.)Quite surprising me that he tuitioned at here because the fees quite expensive .For me , i cant affordable.Finally ,it was lunch time , we had one hour to have our lunch .Both of us dun have any idea to eat our lunch ,so we decided went to kfc. In between , we chatted our family background , why wanna worked at there ,But quite surprising me that she studied "secretarty"course.Wa..i even dunno got this kind of course but i know now. Haha.After that , we backed to office ..Almost two hours past,both of us were called to different room to ask us some question .first question that they asked :can you handle other situation well such as students were complaining , some sort like that .I answered :if you allow me to know more details about what events or problem they complained , i think i can handle it well. second question :are you satisfy with your salary .I answered : still can.After that i been asked to back home .When i stepped out from that office , i needed to find other job.I wont be hired.


        My second fresh job is clerk at MHL Cargo, jalan aman .That day i went for interview ,then that night i been called to work start from next week.Wa..good news for me .This job i only worked for 3 months then i quit .Everything i can bear but only one that is i cant bear someone scolded me not working but actually i did.It happened 3 times on me .It cause me done crazy events that is i scolded back that boss before i quit.Maybe you will think how dare i am ~but i am sure if u were me on that time, you will done the same actions with me .Why i will think so .em~It was long story, hard to list out everything details at here.So i just skip this part .=D
      
      Third job is the job i am working now."INSING" is a shop that i work now"INSING" is  the shop which sell curtains, blind , roman , laminated floor ,wallpaper and so on .  .It is beside 100 yen at jalan pahlawan  At here , i am home planner .Wa ..what a nice name i have.My job is giving some suggestions or opinion to customers  .Actually my job is quite free , just drawing and servicing the customers.Sometimes , i may felt bored too because no customers , no need drawing ,make me nothing to do .So i just watch some drama at there  but it need to be careful , dun caught by boss or others.Quite freedom..haha~Plus i am glad that my salary raised after i only worked for one month.I also dunno why.Maybe only left me havent quit ,because 2 girls quit after may 2012.Maybe they wan me stay ?i dunno~

       Oh ya, one more job i still working is home tuition ..not at my house but at that girl's house .well...the story began after cny . one day,i saw one tuition advertisement on newspaper ..i try to get this job so i call out ..it is  home tuition ..i am request to meet them at their home ..it's ok..coz i need to know where is it too .after that they decided to hire me to teach her daughter who is in primary 3 this year.i am glad that i got this job, i think i can do well on that time..coz i think it is easy job for me to teach a primary 3 kid..but i am wrong..That girl that i help her tuition is called Serina .that girl is nt a normal kid..i dunno how to tell you. During my teaching ,she seldom pay attention, dun wan remember what i teached her( i keep on repeated the same things , she still the same) ,super active( play her pen , go to kitchen a while , go to toilet ,move here and there , eat her dinner ,eat finger snacks),n other non sense actions..plus she always need 1 hour and half to complete her homework( i even dunno why she can do her simple homework for so long, just write new words or copy the sentences into 1 paragraph. tell me why? izzit ur homework is so difficult to do?)She is smart but she dun wan to remember what ever i teach.Others i still can help ,only this one i cant .I already told her problems to her mother.I hope her mum will do something such as advising ,punishing her daughter ..but no actions make by her mum.It make me speechless.Whatever, dun blame me when ur daughter score bad results.This kind of children dun wan learn , only wasting my time to teach her one step by one step .All are useless.only 2 words for that girl:GOOD LUCK.

       It is what my life before june.what is my life after may~to be continue~=D